Empty

So currently we are in the middle of the corona virus outbreak and so everyone is struggling but I just feel so empty recently. For the past year I’ve been having really bad anxiety and stress and because you can’t just get rid of those things, I used to distract myself instead. I would ask my friends to meet or to go somewhere to make myself happier like even just going shopping but these days I can’t do any of those things. Instead I just have to sit back and struggle with my anxiety by myself and I feel so … Continue reading Empty

Panic attack

So today I had a horrendous panic attack and it was the scariest thing ever. I have had a few panic attacks before where I feel like I can’t breathe and feel a bit sick but this one was different. It really came out of no where because one minute I was talking to my friends and the next I felt a bit light headed but not too bad so I went to go to the toilet and all of a sudden I felt like I couldn’t breath and I started hyperventilating and all of a sudden I felt sick. … Continue reading Panic attack

dear mum

I wish you would listen to me and hear what i have to say. sometimes life gets tough and i need someone to cry on but when i come to you crying it’s almost like you don’t care. I know its been about a month since he broke up with me and your’e probably tired of me talking about him but what you don’t understand is that i need you the most right now. i dont want you to change the subject or tell me to move on, i want you to hug me tight and tell me everything will … Continue reading dear mum

Week 1 without him 💔

So this time last week he broke up with me… I thought he was going to be in my life forever and we would grow old together but then he ended everything just because he didn’t feel a click. He couldn’t see himself spending the rest of his life with me but I had already thought about everything like what we would have in our house and what it would be like waking up everyday next to him knowing he was all mine. I know I’m still young and have loads of time to meet someone yet but I really … Continue reading Week 1 without him 💔

What I am grateful for

The world focuses mostly on all of the negative things and not on what we have right in front of us enough so i’m going to make a list of all the things I am grateful for so when I feel like giving up I can remind myself of all the good things in life. ( I am going to add to this weekly so by the end of the year I will have a longggg list) I am grateful for my family and how well we all get along My boyfriend who is so lovely My past and all … Continue reading What I am grateful for

losing friends :(

So i’m deciding to write this because i keep thinking about it and i cant sleep so i thought it would be better to let it all out instead of keeping it stacked up in my brain. Have you ever lost a friend, or many friends? because i have. It is honestly the worst feeling in the world to lose friends as you feel like your whole world has come crashing down. especially when you have those friends which you can see yourself still being friends with in 40 years time but it just kind of ends. I have realised … Continue reading losing friends 😦

Do you ever feel like the world is plotting against you?

Sometimes I swear the world is literally plotting against me. Like I try to be the best person I can be but it will do everything it can to make my life hell. I always have to face really hard problems like one decision or another and there is normally one that I really want to choose, however there are consequences if I don’t pick the other. what makes me think that the world is plotting against me is that they two problems are such a coincidence to be at the same time that there must be someone behind it … Continue reading Do you ever feel like the world is plotting against you?

The Journey Begins

Thanks for joining me! Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton Hi! Welcome to my blog. I don’t know if anyone is reading this or if anyone ever will but I have created this to just say what I want to say without anyone judging me. I often feel like many people will change their opinion on me if I say what I feel in real life so I have decided to let it all out on here. I have no idea what I will post yet or how often I will post but … Continue reading The Journey Begins